You're Never Over

Eminem has been relating to my life lately.  Half of the titles in his album Recovery have been going along with things in my life.  For example, "Going Through Changes" with friends, family, and myself.  But that happens everyday...right?  "Won't Back Down" makes me think how I used to never back down when my ex-boyfriend Andre and I would fight.  I'd never give up.  And I'm like that; I'm stubborn.  But one song title that has stuck out to me is "You're Never Over".  It's relating to what I've been thinking about today.
"You're Never Over" reminds me of how I'm not going to get over that one boyfriend that meant something more than holding hands, calling each other, and hanging out.  He was one of the people I trusted the most, and fell for.  I'm not sure if it was love, I'm only fifteen.  But it was something special.
We dated for six months, so you can imagine we went through a lot.  We went through a lot more than I expected, and every step of the way, we were there for each other.  After we broke up, things turned upside down for us.  It's like once you're used to talking to someone every day, it's just a natural thing to call them up.  But since the day we ended, we could never have a good conversation.  He just didn't want to talk, and I don't blame him.  I was pissed and made things a big deal.  I wish I hadn't though, because once in awhile we would talk.  But now, it's nothing.
"You're Never Over" is how I feel.  I've heard it takes half the time you dated to get over someone, but is that really true?  It has been three months since we broke up, and we've both been with other people.  But once someone means that much to you and becomes nothing...it seems harder to get over them.  I just wish I knew how to get over him and let go.  Will it ever happen?  I'm sure it will, but it seems to be taking longer than I'd like.  But I'd rather it take time then never get over...even though he'll always have a place in my heart and mind.

Strong People

Lately in my life, I've realized a lot of things.  I've realized that not everybody is who they say they are.  There are a lot of two faced people in the world, and face it.  We're all going to meet someone that is completely different from who they say they are. People who were your best friends just months ago turn into someone they promised they would never become.  My old best friend, for instance, is one of them.  But she cannot accept the fact that sometimes, people just drift.  It happens.  It's just one of the challenges in life. 

I've also realized that when challenges come into your life, the only thing you can do is keep your head up and surrond yourself with people who make you happy.  The past few months, I've been through a lot.  A nasty break up, drama, a grandpa diagnosed with cancer, friends changing, and possibly dealing with something else I'd rather not...well blog about.  The best I can do is depend on people who make me happy, and who will be there for me.  And keep my head up, even if I'm 5'1".  

I like to call myself strong and always holding my head up, but I really can't.  The others around me keep me strong.  I couldn't do it by myself. I guess what I'm saying is there are many people in my life who help me, and make me a better and stronger person.  I often wonder if they're as weak as I am at times. Or are there naturally just...strong people?